Showing posts with label balance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label balance. Show all posts

Monday, March 22, 2010

new nest?


i am so grateful for what we have. our little yellow house is my nest and i am so thankful that we live here comfortably and peacefully. there is nothing more i need (except maybe some sleep). that said though, there is always always always room to dream. so the big question in our little house lately has been - do we want to move to the country? we have been spying out this one beautiful home for months now and brought the girls up last week to see. above is just the side yard! i must admit that moving far away has a lot to offer. more SPACE, nature, less noise, a change of pace, an art studio!...how dreamy. but what we would be giving up... closeness to family and friends - which seems most important. is a big house really worth a big move? will we be happy there? as long as we are together we are at home i always say but a decision like this could change our lives considerably. hmmm. a dilemma, but a good dilemma i know. 

truth is i can't imagine not living here in nyack. i do love it so. :)




Wednesday, February 24, 2010

circle time (for mamas)


women are amazing! we are capable of great creation. we do it all. for some reason though, we find it difficult to come together and simply honor each other for the absolutely beautiful beings that we are. that is what the circle is for. it's for sitting down with women and recharging your spirit which is exactly what i did last night. and it was much needed. the winter months seem to rest heavy on my spirit and releasing all of the baggage of late and allowing the positive energy to make its way in is the souls best medicine.

marin, a doula, child birth educator, goddess, priestess, and dear friend, holds women's circles for mothers here in nyack. check out marin's site for links to where and when her workshops are. her abounding spirit and wise intuitiveness lead these circles and create a space of warmth, safety and love. for those mamas (pregnant, new and seasoned) out there who are local and haven't attended a circle, it is such a special way to nurture ourselves - which i know can be put on the back burner but is so necessary. and for those of you that are not local, seek out your local circle or just gather. (total side note: read the red tent if you haven't already - a great fiction about our ancient sisters and the rituals of gathering together during birth and menses. 

today i feel rejuvenated and inspired. thank you marin and thank you to all of my sisters who sat in circle and shared yourselves.

the photos above are actually not from last night but from a circle that was held at my home a few years ago and of course lead but marin. i decided to gather the special women in my life  - all generations - to celebrate my healing and new beginnings. it was a night that i will hold in my heart forever.

below is a quote that i try to read over and over to remind me of my divinity.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  —Marianne Williamson


Monday, May 18, 2009

finding a balance



finally, a quiet moment to myself. how long will it last? i better start writing... so my design work has really been monopolizing my time lately. i am very grateful for having many jobs, especially in economic times like these yet i tend to refrain from saying "no." this always leads to an overwhelmed state. i am trying my hardest to turn down jobs  - not only because i need sleep but because my girls need me. in the midst of this chaos of my day i hear a little voice saying "why are you doing this? what is truly important here? do we really need the money this badly?" i don't know the answer. atleast not yet. 

what i do know is that when i am not working, i feel i am not contributing (crazy, i know). i feel that i am losing my identity as a designer. i feel annoyed when i have to ask for money to go food shopping. the same old stay-at-home mom story. i'm sure all you mom's have the dilemma. i want to stay home with the kids/i want to continue my career. it's like we are either under-stimulated or overworked. where is the balance? i am still trying to find it.