take off!

it's so funny how us mamas work. i was starting to get a tad worried that my 15 month old had no interest in walking. the toddler play group seemed like more work than play because i had to protect her from walkers and runners while she was crawling, people would ask how old she was and is she walking yet?, then my husband even started wondering. so as a mama i knew that she was fine and doing things on her own time schedule but -what if- always creeps in right? am i doing all of the right things? is there something wrong that i can be helping? yadda yadda... so the big event happened last night and what a show tressa put on. she walked across the room and after that, she took off! back and forth, over and over again. it was so much fun. and my seven year old really got a kick out of it. it was truly beautiful to observe. it's so amazing how she went from a couple of steps on her own to being a true walker now. i even thought she might forget by morning but oh no - she's still goin'. and so as i was watching excitedly and so proud of this little wee one walking across our living room i felt that old familiar feeling of sadness. my baby is now a toddler...she will not be crawling anymore...she's growing so fast...you know the feeling. we want them to grow and develop but when it actually happens we feel that ever so subtle pulling away. what a job we mamas have.

while on the mama subject - we are the ones making the hard decisions and the one decision presently that is on most of our minds is the flu vaccine. i will most likely not be giving my girls the shot for either the seasonal flu or the h1n1 but with the media crazed and rare stories popping up in the back of my mind, it is hard not to be concerned. i have researched vaccines as most mamas do and have made decisions accordingly but with this h1n1 virus, there's not much information to make an informed decision. i did though happen to read an article in the atlantic this month. it's a very smart and level headed article that i think everyone should read. even my pediatrician mentioned the article at our last visit. but unfortunately, after all reading and gathering of information, the choice is still ours and no one is going to tell us exactly what to do or what is best. so let's hope for the best - a mild flu season as well as peace of mind in our mama decisions.